Tonia Alice

I looked at the photos from my birthday, my 18th and I was shocked…

Why was I shocked?

Because when I get up in the morning and look in the mirror,  I think to myself,Sure. I know that I’m big. But I’m not THATbig.But in reality, I am.

I’m a size 20/22 depending on the clothes and even my mum is where my old clothes. I was never worried about my weight, never worried about the way that I looked or the way that my clothes sat.

Until I printed these photos today. These photos that make me look like nothing else I ever felt like. Nothing like I should’ve been, nothing like i expected.

So when I heard that a few of my friends were doing this ‘insanity workout’, i decided that I would do a little research about it. And honestly when I heard that nothing bad had seemed to come out of it, I gathered the courage to talk to my friends about it.

Now, I’ve never been one to stick to a diet or a workout but I think by telling people that I am doing this workout and by having people around me who will keep me going and keep me motivated, I should be able to stick to this… hopefully. I guess this is kind of like my plea. I am asking you, while I know there aren’t alot of you, there are a few. I am asking those few to keep me going. Keep reminding me that I am doing this to feel better.

Keep telling me that short term pain is worth that long term gain.
Keep telling me that formal is my goal.
Keep telling me that schoolies is my goal.
Keep telling me that you believe in me.

This is my plea. This is my ask for help. Lord knows, I’m going to need it.